Have you ever gotten to the point where you are so completely overwhelmed that you want to curl up into a ball and cover your head with a blanket and pretend the whole entire outside world is non-existent?
ME ME ME ME ME!
I'm to that point this weekend.
Really, I've been there pretty much since Annabelle came home from the hospital this last time (and off and on before that...) Every time I feel like I'm beginning to get a handle on our new realty it starts slipping again.
I'm yelling at my kids WAY too much.
I've had zero patience with anyone.
My house is a mess pretty much ALL the time.
I glare at my husband and get irritated at him over things that are stupid.
And I eat. A lot. Of chocolate. And anything else that is comfort food.
So this week, I'm taking a step back and clearing my plate of all "extra" stuff (aka blogging, obsessive checking of e-mail/facebook/twitter, just to name a few) and focusing on my family, and me, and God. Not necessarily in that order.
That said, really the only blogging day I will skip is Wednesday (I'm pre-posting this on Sunday...)
Annabelle's heart cath/biopsy is on Thursday, so I'll definitely update then. Our hope is that it is outpatient, but there is a good chance we'll have to stay a night, which I am okay with if that's what is needed.
Her cath is another reason I feel like I need to focus my thoughts this week. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I am. There is a chance they might balloon one of her pulmonary arteries, and they'll get a good look at everything, including pressures and of course, will do the biopsy to make sure she doesn't have any rejection.
Oh, that reminds me! One year post transplant (only 2 weeks and 1 day away!) brings a few changes!
One of her anti-rejection meds is now 2x per day instead of 3x. This would make us down to only giving meds twice a day (10 and 10) instead of 4 times (6, 10, 2, 10), except that she still has a blood pressure med that is 3x... but it is on my list of things to ask, whether we can change that to 2x soon as well. AND... one of her prophylactic meds got taken off too! That makes us down to 9 medications! It would have been 8, but they added another one at her most recent hospital stay.
That's still a lot, but MUCH better than the *20* she came home on last summer!
Anyway, they changed the meds a week before hand, so when we do the cath, we'll see (I guess...) how her body is taking the lessened amount of medication. This also changes our clinic time too, so another thing I have to figure out schedule-wise!
Okay, this "I'm not going to blog" post has now gotten longer than I'd planned, HA! Your prayers this week both on the home-front and on the heart-cath-front are super appreciated! Thank you all!!