Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Broken Bone

Annabelle has a fracture of her femur:-(

Her and I were "practicing" standing up, meaning I was trying to get her to set her feet on the ground and straighten her legs, and she was doing good until her left leg buckled underneath her at an weird angle.

She screamed and screamed, and Momma cried and cried with her as I rocked her. I put her to nap shortly after, thinking rest might make her feel better.

But she woke up crying, and whenever I move her leg, she cries.

So I called the doctor, took her to get an Xray, then they just called me back (we're at home) and told me there is a buckle fracture above her knee on her femur.

The doctor said she probably has weaker bones due to questionable nutrition for so long, all her meds, and just being in the hospital for so long, which makes them break easier.

I'm just... beside myself, to say the least. I *know* it was an accident and not my fault, but I keep thinking if I just wouldn't have pushed her so much, if I would have stopped the first time she stood and not made her try a second time. I just... I'm just so completely over this.

We should be going to see the orthopedic doctor at Vanderbilt sometime tomorrow. Not sure what exactly they do for a buckle fracture of the leg. I can't imagine poor Annabelle in a leg cast!!! Holy cow. I just... My mind isn't wrapping around this well.

I just want to say... really God? THIS TOO??? Has my baby not gone through enough???

And then part of me is selfish and tired and just so over all this too.

But... God knows all this too. I'm so thankful that He understands when we're tired and give out and not in the greatest of humor. He carries us then too.

I'll update again tomorrow after we see the orthopedic, as to what they decide to do.

Your continued prayers for us are appreciated, especially poor Annabelle. She's hurting a lot tonight, and screams everytime I move her at all. I might just let her sleep on the floor tonight so I don't have to get her up!!! Giving her tylenol every 4 hours as she needs it. *sigh*

19 comments:

Genevieve said...

So sorry about Annabelle's poor little leg. I predict tonight will not be much fun. Prayers will continue, of course for both of you (all of you). You are not alone. You're in the palm of His hand. Hang in there.

Erika Clink said...

I'm speechless. Poor Annabelle and poor momma! Just remember God wouldn't give you something you couldn't handle. It may seem as if He's completely against you but really He's right there next to you helping you through each dilemma. I'll be praying for Annabelle tonight and especially tomorrow when you're at the doctor.

Kristin said...

No words, Krista. I'm so very sorry. Would stay up and help you if I could. Praying.

Keli Gwyn said...

Krista, I'm typing with tears in my eyes. I hurt for Annabelle, but I hurt for you, too. Please don't beat yourself up over this. You are a good mother--a kind, caring, loving, careful one who wants the very best for your little princess. Accidents happen. And that's what this was. An accident. I trust her doctors will figure out the best way to help her and that you'll cope with the changes to your routine. Even so, I wish I could come over to your house with your favorite treat, give you a BIG hug, and let you use my shoulder. Alas, a cyber hug and prayers are all I can offer, but they are yours.

Harvestmom said...

Just read this to my mom, dad and Rick. My parents are here visiting with their new puppy. We are all SOOOOOO SORRY for poor little Annabelle (and her poor Mommy too). We will be praying for you. Can they not give her anything stronger for pain? Sending hugs and prayers from up north........

Erica Vetsch said...

Krista, I'm so sorry. I'm glad you called the doctor and got her in. We're praying for you.

Anonymous said...

Hi Krista,
Are you sure Tylenol is enough? You absolutely did the right thing by calling! Good thing you did. As a neonatal nurse, I might call for something a little bit stronger..I know you have so much to consider with her heart and all, but it is just a thought!!

We are all here for you, and I will PRAY WITHOUT CEASING FOR YOU AND YOUR HONEY BUN.

Sending angels to take away her pain, your guilt, your fears.

^j^ ^j^ ^j^ ^j^ ^j^

Praying without ceasing!
Linda

Julie Jarnagin said...

:( So sorry. That just stinks all around. I'm praying for lots of peace and comfort to blanket your household. I pray God will just pour it out for you guys. Hugs.

sarah said...

Oh no......you were pushing her because you are a good mama!!! I am so sorry. I can imagine there is a wealth of emotions!! Ugh.....xo

APE said...

Poor Annabelle. :( I was so sorry to read this post! Hope you all can get a good night's sleep tonight.
April

Virginia said...

Oh, poor you and poor her! You did just the right thing by taking her in. A bad momma would have waited, hoped that nothing was wrong, kept going... You're listening and hearing her.
I'm so sorry. And there's not much I can say except when you're at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on! Lots of prayers for a peaceful night. Please don't feel it was your fault. Praying for your peace.

Darla said...

I'm so sorry for poor sweet Annabelle and her Mama. I am praying for it to be the best news possible today from the ortho.

Terri Tiffany said...

Oh dear I am so so sorry for both of you:( I know you feel badly but you are an awesome mom who has been through so much with your baby. More than any of us could ever stand. Praying for you and Annabelle that she heals quickly and you keep being the mom you are:)

Flossie said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. My toddler recently had an accidental leg fracture, and let me tell you this: Kids are SOOOOO much more resilient than adults! After we got his leg casted, he was back to his old self. (It bothered Mommy & Daddy more than it did him.) If you can get her immobilized, she will probably adjust more quickly than you would expect.

I totally get your guilt...my husband & I both experienced the same. Praying that God will give you peace and help you cope. Hang in there!

Silver lining: babies typically heal faster than adults. Praying this is the case with Annabelle too!

Mary Connealy said...

I'm so sorry this happened, Krista. I will be praying.
I suppose it's not worth much for me to encourage you not to feel guilty because you KNOW this wasn't anything you could have foreseen and you know you weren't being harsh or reckless with her.

But that's head knowledge. Heart knowledge is much more difficult. I remember times i did things that resulted in one of my babies being bumped or falling or something and it still eats at me. It's so hard to watch your children hurt, then to feel like you could have prevented it.....

God bless you, girl. and Annabelle...your whole family.

The mom of 4 monkeys! said...

Oh boy do I understand! A couple months before my little boy was to turn two "I" broke his leg. :o( We were at an indoor playground and I was taking him down a big, bouncy slide. The first time went great and he wanted to go again. Well the second time his slipper gripped the slide between my legs which made his leg stop but my body just kept going. I heard a POP and thought for sure I broke his ankle. He was crying such a strange type of cry. Immediately I got him in the van and we rushed to the ER that was about 10 minutes away. By the time we got there he was basically in a state of shock and was completely out of it and pale. The "desk lady" told us to have a seat to wait our turn. A minute later a doctor was walking through the waiting room and happened to look at us. He stopped and asked me what was wrong, I guess Ben looked pretty bad and maybe me too. I told him I though Ben's ankle was broken and he immediately brought us back to a room! A few seconds later we had about five people around Ben checking all kinds of things. I was so worried because my normal active little boy was so lethargic and, although consious, not really responding to anything. I knew he had not hit his head or anything but I couldn't understand why he was in this "state". I later learned from the doctor that Ben's reaction is very normal. Little ones that suffer a trauma just shut down. Not long after he just fell asleep. I was worried he passed out but the doctors assured me he was just sleeping. When he woke up he was much more responsive, phew!
After xrays the doc said they were normal and sent us home even though Ben still wouldn't put any weight on his legs. We were to call an ortho doc in a couple of days if he didn't get better. Yep, I was about 2 minutes away from the hospital when I pulled over and called the ortho doc because I knew something was wrong! Sure enough, the nurse knew exactly what was wrong, the stress on his ankle caused a fracture in his tibea bone! The ER didn't xray his leg, just his ankle and foot so they missed it.
Once his cast was on he was not in too much pain but refused to move for the first week. Fortunately, they heal so quickly at his age that he only needed a cast for three weeks!
OK, so that was a long story to basically say that "I" too broke my child's leg :o( so I know what you mean.... Oh, the mother guilt!

George Schroeder said...

Krista, we're praying for you guys. It always seems like it's something with these complicated little ones, huh? (Christopher suffered a very slight leg fracture last December). Good news is, they heal very quickly.
We pray for just that, and for continued good health for Annabelle and all of y'all.

Anonymous said...

Oh sweet Krista...I am praying for you. This was not your fault...it was an accident. I wish I could take your pain and guilt away. Children are amazing..and just like Annabelle has proven time and again, she will be fine!! Much love and hugs to you and your beautiful family! Jessica Scranton

Beth said...

Oh sweethart!! I am so sorry! We are praying for you. I know how it feels to literally be holding on to a child when they break a bone. IT SUCKS!!! Be at peace and know that you were doing what any mom would do with their child as they learn and grow, regardless of the road they've been on or are on. love here!!!