Funny, I can't TELL you how many people accidentally call Annabelle by the name Abigail. My heart squeezes every time, but I just smile and gently correct them. Still, it is a reminder of my little one who went to be with Jesus.
Abigail would be turning 8 this month.
After I miscarried, I heard a song on the radio. And I sobbed for about an hour. It quickly became my favorite song, and I couldn't hear it without tears welling in my eyes.
Most of you probably know it. It is the extra little part toward the end that brings me to my knees every time.
"You give and take away. You give and take away. My heart will choose to say, Lord Blessed be Your name."
The day I heard it, it was a clear message to my heart. God gives us good things and blessings like little babies, but those things can also be taken away just as easily. But no matter what, I am to CHOOSE to bless his name. I may not always feel like it. But I can always put those feelings aside and make a choice to bless Him.
That is what I did with Abigail. And that is what I determined to do with Annabelle.
God reminded me of that this week.
|My grandpa holding Annabelle|
God gives us cute little babies to love and take care of, and takes away Grandpa's to heaven to be with him.
Lord, blessed be YOUR name.
Oh, and I reported on Wednesday on how GREAT Annabelle was doing eating!
And she continued to eat great... until yesterday. She decided food wasn't so grand for some unknown reason. We still feed her... it just isn't NEARLY so easy (i.e. the whole binky trick and dealing with a baby pushing away food...)
He gives and takes away, but I still bless his name!
Moral of the story: There will be times when the giving equals out with the taking. And there will be other times where it just feels like God is taking away everything we hold dear. And other times when we sit in awe of all God gives us.
But regardless... choose today to say, "Lord, Blessed be YOUR name."
In other news... I have a name for my book!! I actually had this last week, but wanted to make sure it was final, and thought it be fun to save that fun tid-bit for another blog.
So... Monday, you'll find out what my book will be called! And, I'll tell you a wee bit about it, too.
Hope everyone is having a fantastic weekend!
(Cheetah Fest at school on Friday... we had fun... Karalynn went off with her friends, thus no pictures of her! HA!)