Sunday, March 20, 2011

A GOOD weekend!


PRAISE THE LORD for good weekends!!!!!!!!

I needed this weekend MUCH more than I realized.

I know I'm giving you more of a "Krista" update than an Annabelle one, but bare with me.

The last 2 months I've been running on complete empty. And it's taking its toll. I know, I know, we've been here for a LONG time and this is all totally understandable, but still. I'd reached the end of my ability to function on a half-way normal level. I was to the point where I wanted to cry about every 5 minutes, and whenever someone asked, "How are you doing?" I had to say, "Good" and run quickly before I started sobbing.

What made this most frustrating is that Annabelle is fine. Besides every 3-4 days running a fever, she's been very stable. That made it worse, I think, because I kept telling myself I should be STABLE myself and shouldn't be feeling so utterly crappy.

I still can't put it all into words, but something needed to change before I really lost my sanity.

I'd love to tell you that something DID change, but really, it didn't. But I DID get a really good, relaxing weekend, and WOW I needed it.

My weekend recap:

Friday: My husband surprised me and took me out for a nice dinner. The evening was beautiful, we didn't argue about where to go, and we just chilled.

Saturday: Melissa (Anna Reese's Momma) and I took a walk to the little shops on the main street here near Vanderbilt and ate out for a late lunch/early dinner. We just took our time and perused the cute (but yikes expensive) stores. It was fun to dream:-)

I read a book... yes I finished the whole thing... on Friday/Saturday. (A Cowboy's Touch by Denise Hunter... very good!)

Oh, and I rearranged Annabelle's room on Saturday too!!! Her crib is now sideways. Her room is much more spacious now!

Sunday: I slept in until 10:30 (can you tell I was tired???) I walked over to the hospital from the Ronald McDonald House (and walked back and forth once since then too, woohoo for exercise!)

Annabelle got another wagon ride, which she loved! We even picked her up at the hall windows and let her see the pretty day outside! Since she has never BEEN outside, she wasn't sure what to think about it!

And G-ma and G-pa Johnson came to visit (they hadn't been in a while since they've been sick.)

I also let myself take time to brainstorm and work on one of my unfinished books, and I got some really FUN ideas for it that made me excited, so YEAH for that too!

The rest of my family went camping Sunday night (tomorrow is the start of spring break for my kiddos) and while I wish I could have gone with them... I'll be honest and say I'm not a HUGE sleep on the ground kinda girl, so I'm praying that they have a GREAT time. My kiddos and my hubby need some FUN times too!

To sum things up: I slept. I walked. I read. I wrote.

And I did a good bit of praying. Not long indepth prayers (which I probably should do more often too) but a lot of, "Okay God, what should I do now?" and "Okay God, I'll give this to you, too" kind of prayers.

I'm hoping this GOOD weekend will give me the boost I need to get me through a little longer.

And I'm praying with everything in me that God will let us be home... as a whole family... with a WHOLE HEART, very soon.

THANK YOU again to all of you who are praying for our Annabelle and for our family. Our thanks cannot be expressed loud enough. We feel every single one of those prayers!!

OH!!!! I can NOT forget the other BIG BIG thing that happened this weekend!

On Sunday (technically today, I'm writing this late...) Annabelle celebrated her 8 MONTH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

Happy birthday my sweet 8-month-old!!!!!

20 comments:

Stephanie said...

Happy Birthday Annabelle. LOVE THE SMILEY PICTURE!! Still praying for you. Hope you have a really good week to go with the good weekend.

Keli Gwyn said...

Krista, I'm glad you had such a great weekend and that you were able to relax and recharge a bit.

Happy 8 month birthday to Annabelle!

Kaye Dacus said...

I had to giggle when I read the first line. How bare do you want us to get with you? ;-)

Glad you had a good weekend. Praying for a calm week . . . with, perhaps, some good news!

Fishers of Men said...

Dear Krista,
Once again, I don't know you personally, but have been following your blog for months and have been praying for you. I just can't imagine! I am so thankful to the Lord for your great weekend. God is so good in not allowing us to be pushed to the very end, but in giving us a rest/break/renewal exactly when we need it. Praise the Lord for your life!

Julie Zaragoza

Valerie said...

KP, it only makes sense that you're having harder days now that Annabelle is having better days. I've said it before, you and I work the same way- kick butt when there's a crisis and fall apart when it's over. (Not that Annabelle's crisis is over, but you know what I mean.) Our levels of stoicism and the levels of crisis in our lives are inversely proportional. (The math major in me had to throw that out there.)

Valerie said...

Oh! By the way, I love ya, chickadee, and we're still praying for Annabelle; you, specifically; and the rest of your family! (Always!)

Wendy Paine Miller said...

Yeah for nice dinner, finishing books, sleeping in and big time YEAH for 8 months!
~ Wendy

Krista Phillips said...

Thanks everyone... Prayers for a good WEEK are totally appreciated!!!

Val-- you know me so well. I'm sure this is part of it. But I don't have to like it! :-)

Kaye, you'll find it funny to know that I was sure that was the wrong way to spell that word, but my befuddled brain just couldn't come up with the right way, so I smiled, shrugged my shoulders, and decided that a misspelled word was the least of my worries, ESPECIALLY because of it's meaning which would be quite funny in context:-)

Beverley said...

I have to agree with Valerie....we rise the challenge and when the 'world' is at peace then we crumble...sounds like you are a normal mom!!

Oh God, we know we only understand sliver of what you are and what you can do, so this feels like a long haul with Annabelle - but to you it is a twinkling of an eye... renew Krista and her family. AND bring a new heart...prepare the donor family as only you can, bring then peace in all they do. Amen

Christin said...

I'm so glad to hear you had a great weekend! Praise God! Don't feel bad when you get overwhelmed, because even if things are "fine" at the moment, it doesn't mean that things are easy over all. You've got a little girl in the hospital, after all, and that puts a strain on everyone in the family. I just read this verse in Isaiah this morning and found immense encouragement for myself. Maybe it will do the same for you. "Do not fear, For I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with My righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10. Isn't that just beautiful?

Tammi T. said...

Yes, Krista! I'm so glad you were able to have a relaxing weekend and to be able to recharge. God designed are bodies for rest, as I'm sure you know. He gives us so many examples of it in His word but it is so often hard for us to do.

We continue to pray for Annabelle, you and your whole family. Can't wait to hear about the girls camping adventures with their dad.

Take care!

Anonymous said...

Happy 8 months.
We love you and continue to stand in the Gap to have his peace and comfort. Renew our strength when we are week.

Jodie said...

SO glad you got to relax. Love it when God drops little blessing all at once and they add up to one big one! You guys remain in our prayers daily! This made me smile, especially the part about you getting to work on your story!

Aleisha said...

AMEN! SOOO GLAD YOU HAD A GOOD WEEKEND. AND TO SEE ANOTHER PICTURE OF ANNABELLE SMILING.PRAISE THE LORD!

Sherrinda said...

Look at that sweet smile Annabelle has! What a cutie pie! I'm so glad you had a great weekend, Krista. You deserve it!

p.s. Like Kaye, I smirked a little wondering how "bare" you were going to get! bahahahaha!

Riete said...

A belated Happy 8 Month Birthday to Annabelle!
And you definitely deserved that weekend, Krista.

Praying here in the Netherlands for all of you :)

Karen Lange said...

So glad to hear this! She is a little doll. :) Love the picture of her smiling.
Still praying,
Karen

Lis said...

Happy to hear you had a blessed weekend. Lil' angel looks so adorable in that first pic. Happy Birthday Annabelle! Love n Prayers ~ Lis

Lis said...

Happy to hear you had a blessed weekend. Lil' angel looks so adorable in that first pic. Happy Birthday Annabelle! Love n Prayers ~ Lis

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Oh, you caught her smiling! I love it.

During the darkest days, I treasured those "normal" times. Simple tasks, all the things I missed on a day-to-day basis suddenly became so precious. They reminded me to be grateful for the small blessings.