Last night (Tuesday night) Annabelle had another spell where she dropped her heart-rate, but they got it right back up. It was touch and go for a while, but she was much better during the day.
But tonight (wednesday night...) her heart rate was way TOO high, she was really fussy, and working hard to breathe. They ran her blood gas numbers and, in the words of the doctor, they were REALLY bad.
They are reintubating her as I type and calling in the cardiologist to do an emergency echo to make sure her heart is okay. No clue what caused this yet.
Please pray for my little Annabelle. My heart is absolutely breaking and I just want to scream really really REALLY loud.
I know God has a plan for my little baby. I have NO NO NO idea why that plan is to have so much troubles at the moment though. I keep thinking, it wasn't supposed to be like this. They told us that we would be in the hospital for a month to 2 months originally. NEVER in my wildest dreams would I have expected to still be here and still having such major issues. I was really believing everything would be okay.
But God is still here, with us, even now. I really do believe that even when, in moments like this, I "feel" very much alone.