Sunday, September 5, 2010

Annabelle week 6-7

Okay, so I'm a few days late on my "once a week" post about Annabelle. My wonderful eldest sister got married yesterday, so this weekend was whirlwind of wedding preparations and events! Today she and Ben are off to Hawaii, and I am thoroughly jealous. :-)

Our Annabelle is doing well! On the whole, she's had a very good week. She's come off of her vapotherm machine last night (it was the little nose thing that pushed air into her nose to help encourage her to take her own big breaths) and so far she hasn't desatted at all, which is REALLY good. She'd been having major issues with that earlier in the week.

Her vomiting has also subsided some, but this is still a huge prayer request. She still gags and sometimes vomits when we move her too much, and the only reason she's not vomiting more is because they have a tube in her stomach sucking out all the excess stomach bile so she can't throw it up. She will be getting an upper GI scan done on Tuesday to evaluate the reason she is making so much bile and still gagging. Please pray they figure out what is wrong so we can get this fixed!

She also got her stitches out this last week, so that is a good step in the right direction too!

Yesterday was a hard day for me. I was SO SO SO excited for my sister, but I didn't see Annabelle all day and I missed her. I got back to the hospital, still dressed in my wedding attire (and got some really funny looks...) and I saw my little love and it just hit me that she'd had to miss her first really big, momentous family function. She wasn't in any of the "family" wedding pictures. It was like we were incomplete.

My husband asked me yesterday if I was going to go to church finally this morning (I haven't gone since she was born since I"ve been at the hospital.) I know it is stupid, but I can't. For some reason the though of going there, not having a baby with me, and seeing all those other mom's with their new babies, I don't know. I cry just thinking about it. It was so so very hard to go home for the first time and see her room with her crib and all her things, knowing that I can't even bring her home to use them yet. I guess I just want that one thing I can save and experience with her, ya know?

Also, I'm starting back to work on Wednesday. I'm easing into it, just going 6 hours a day for now, but my weekends will definately be spent at the hospital, especially once my mother-in-law goes back home in a few weeks.

Please be praying for that too. Scott and I have been spoiled by not having to worry about what to do with my other 3 kiddos, so it will be a big adjustment to add that back in, but a needed one. Our family NEEDS to get back into some kind of normal routine.

But I still desperately want to be here for my Annabelle. My heart breaks at the thought of her here by herself. I know it's stupid, but I was gone all day yesterday and when I got back last night, it was just like she looked at me and said, "Mom, where have you been? Why did you leave me??" I know most of that was just me, but it was still hard.

*sigh* Anyway, your prayers that we figure everything out and that I don't go bonkers in the process are appreciated.

Lots of pictures today!

Annabelle with her Great-Grandpa Crum! He was SO SO excited to hold and see her. He told me as he left, "Now, you keep her warm, ya hear?" She doesn't wear clothes a lot (they are hard to get on and sometimes she'll get too warm in them) and he did NOT like that she wasn't all snuggled up warm. :-)
Grandpa Johnson holding Annabelle for the first time! Looks like a proud Grandpa to me:-)

My mom and dad with Annabelle:-)
Me snuggling my Annabelle close! I'm usually sitting while holding her, but I held her while they changed her bed so her and I got a good snuggling in!



Grandma Phillips holding Annabelle for the first time!

Annabelle hanging out in her bouncy seat for the first time! We try to get her in there for a half hour each day at least just to give her a change of scenery. She hasn't completely decided yet if she likes it, ha!

So, since Annabelle couldn't come for the wedding and have wedding pictures, I stayed in my dress and had my picture taken with her in her pretty purple wedding dress. (and yes, I got my hair cut!)

Annabelle showing off her wedding attire!

Love you all, and THANKS for your prayers and for listening to my babbling. God is still good. Every day. Every moment.

14 comments:

Casey said...

She looks so much healthier! Every single picture you post she just keeps looking better.

I can only imagine how much it aches to leave her in the hospital by herself. I will be praying that when you do have to go back to work that the time will fly. God is watching over her!!

CandaceCalvert said...

Praying for Annabelle and your family, Krista. Thank you for sharing these beautiful photos. And love your new haircut!

Project Journal said...

She really is a gorgeous baby, Krista! I agree with Casey, she looks a lot healthier and SO much bigger than some of the earlier pictures we saw! Lol!

I'm excited that more of your family got some time with her. They do all look very proud of this little miracle.

: )


Keeping you all in my mind! I'm at college (moved in on Friday), freshman year. It's sooooo hard for me, very homesick, but everytime I think about how hard it is for me, all I have to do is think about little Annabelle and if she can be so strong, so can I! So thank you for giving me that extra boost...

Hoping everything continues on this good path!
Hannah

Karen Lange said...

It's not silly, you're a mom and you want to be with all your kids, no matter where they are. I totally understand. Hang in there; we're all praying for you and your family. Thanks for the pictures; Annabelle is so sweet!
Blessings,
Karen

Kathy Harris said...

Wow! She looks like she's growing, Krista! (Love your new haircut, BTW :)

Terri Tiffany said...

My fav pic is you with her all dressed up! Hair looks awesome too. I still can't imagine the business of your life, stress and all and now you have to go back to work.Praying for you!

Erica Vetsch said...

Look at your sassy, pretty haircut!

It makes perfect sense to me that you'd like to wait to go to church until you can go with Annabelle. :)

I'll be praying thaty ou'll be able to work out all the logistics of going back to work and getting into your routine.

Patti Lacy said...

Oh, dear one, I will pray for you. I totally can relate to your emotions.
Girl, you have been through A LOT in the last few months.

Patti

Lisa Jordan said...

Krista, she is so pretty! Still praying for your family, especially as you adapt to the new changes about to take place. Love the new hair cut, too!

Sherrinda said...

She looks so beautiful! And Krista! I love your hair!!!! LOVE IT!
I'll be praying about your stomach and your going back to work. I know it can't be easy, but I pray God surrounds you and holds you close!

Jill said...

Just don't take on too much before you're ready. I don't think I could work and deal with all of that stress at the same time. But I'm not exactly a very strong person. But, wait, God is. God will give you the strength to do whatever you need to do.

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Krista -

You both look great!

When facing big adjustments, I often wondered how I'd get through them. God always gave me the grace to do whatever was required. We're praying for all of you.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Sandra Phillips said...

Dear Krista, your blog was so sweet, and precious. So many are prayin for Annabelle to be healed.I believe it is happening, but wanted you to know how sad I am that she is goin through all this.hang in there with Jesus.he will never leave us.
Love you Krista,
Sandra

Katie Ganshert said...

I somehow missed this post! Krista - my prayers are with you and your family. Praying that these next few months go by quickly and smoothly so you will have your Annabelle in your arms, sitting at church together.