April is almost up, and I've entered two contests that the finalists are to be announced in May. *ugh* I'm seriously having nightmares! And about each contest separately, go figure.
In the first dream, I got such mixed scores, and only half of the crit.'s were given back to me, and they hadn't announced the finalists so I had SOME of the scores but no idea if I finaled. It was a very frustrating dream!
The second, which was two nights ago, was equally as frustrating. In it, I got back the results, and I don't think I did very well, but again, they didn't officially tell who finaled. Then I woke up...
I will admit, my nature does not tend towards patience, however this is something I've recognized long ago and have worked to overcome. Sometimes I do a great job, other days I fall head first into the pool of impatience.
I have a query out and haven't gotten a final response, but I'm okay with it. At the moment it's a "maybe", and that's better than a no! *grin* But seriously, I know God has the perfect timing on everything, and the perfect agent fit for me as well, so I'm really not fretting TOO much.
But the contest thing is KILLING me. Mostly because there is a set time of a few weeks that the results WILL come in. I know, I know, God knows if I should final or whatever. I need to have patiently wait. But for some reason it's harder for me. I'm trying really hard not to get my *hopes* up too high. It's the whole "If you expect nothing and get nothing, you won't feel so bad." I really want to have the attitude of, "I'm in it to get the great feedback!" but... seriously? Every single person that entered those contests are hoping to win. There WILL be a let down to not final.
But... someone has to not final. In fact, a lot of someones do. And, to be quite honest, it really stinks. But... it's part of life. It's part of publishing. It's part of the journey.
I know I didn't answer any questions, but curious as to who else out there is waiting on contest finalist results. How are you coping? Are you biting your nails till they bleed? Or are you sipping a fruity (for this blog, non-alcoholic) drinks with umbrella's and lounging until the results are in? Are you believing that you will final because God told you to enter, or are you trying to keep your expectations low just in case?
My hope is to find a few fellow friends to commiserate with while I wait! I just hope the carpet where I'm pacing holds out and my nails aren't irreparably damaged in the mean time!