The topic was that dreaded word that none of us can EVER get enough of:
I think we all struggle with how to juggle the things we have going, and feeling like we fail with too many pots boiling and not enough hands to stir. I know I do anyway!!!
His post was a spectacular reminder that our time is GOD'S, and just like our money, if we entrust ALL of it to God and pray He gives us wisdom with how to use it, then we won't run dry. God provides, both our daily material needs as well as our schedule needs. Go read his post, though. He says it much better that I every would!!
Something else struck from his post though, even more so than about my time management.
This blog has been a bit of a struggle for me lately. I LOVE blogging and love getting thoughts onto screen and being able to share with my readers. But any blogger will tell you, things like "comments" and "pageviews" are super important. Both to our own heads as an encouragement to that we aren't speaking to "air" as well as publishers who are super concerned with an author's platform... how many readers they are engaging on a regular basis. At one time, I'd average 15-30 comments every post (which is a decent average since only a small portion of readers usually comment.)
Now I'm good to get a handful, and many times none at all.
At its height, my page visits were in the thousands per day. Now there are days I struggle to stay in the hundreds.
Some of that is because of Annabelle. Everyone followed her story and wanted to check up on her, and there isn't the urgency/need now that she is doing SO much better.
I expected... and even wanted... those numbers to go down, because it meant that my sweet girl was doing well.
But I also wanted to figure out how I could write to KEEP those blog readers too. (refer back to publishers taking a keen interest in platform numbers... to the point that many GREAT books aren't published because an author doesn't have a platform to sell them to)
There were some days my heart wasn't in it, so I just wrote something to get it down in an attempt to keep something out there for people to read.
There were other days that I was super passionate about at topic and spent an hour or more typing it just right.
In both cases, there were many (ahem--- most--) days when it just fell flat. No reaction. Barely a Facebook like. Comment section was like birds chirping.
The writer in me panicked. What am I doing wrong? Is my writing crappy? Am I not hitting the topics that readers are interested in? I've experimented with various kinds of post, and except for the ROCKIN' blog party the other week when both comments/visits were through the roof.... it all just felt stagnant. Void of my normal passion and void of God's blessing.
But reading Allen's post, something very deep hit me, and it was the heart of why blogging had been so unsettling to me lately.
To quote him:
"God plays this odd game with me. Often before I write a post like this – I’m drawn to a movie scene or I get hit with an emotion that pulsates through me... a deep sense of loss or maybe confusion or perhaps joy. I’ve learned this is God’s way of giving me a foretaste of what the people I’m writing to are feeling.
It’s taking me to the sweet spot of what he wants to go after.
Kind of an advance preview." - Allen Arnold
YES! THAT is what I want.
I'm so very tired of trying to analyze what readers want to read, what their sweet spot is.
I want to know what GOD'S sweet spot is... what HE wants to go after in my writing.
YES, the reason I blog is to share my heart with readers, but instead of turning to GOD for the divine wisdom of what my readers need, I've been using my own brain to try to figure it out. And failing MISERABLY.
I've forgotten my own deep held belief that a NUMBER, in the end, isn't what matters. It's the HEART that matters. If whatever I'm doing, whether writing books or blogs or Facebook posts, is for JESUS, then the rest will come as God wills.
If there is just ONE person God wants to read something, and that is ALL the impact my writing has, then it's enough.
It SHOULD be enough.
I'm telling you right now, I won't be perfect. A some of my posts will probably be stupid and fall flat.
But I'm going to start treating my blog like my books. Prayerfully asking God to give me wisdom as to what to write. To breath life into my fingers as I type. Reminding myself that my worth... my BLOGS worth... is more than numbers or comments or links. The goal isn't book sales and page views and comments.
The goal is to, as a community of believers, share each others burdens. To truly figure out how to find the JOY and PEACE that God wants to give as we go on this journey. It is to go after the HEART of God, to please HIM and give him glory with every letter typed.
Oh how I can pray that I do this with both my books AND my blog.
And if I can't... well, then I just need to stop doing it all together. Because it's all meaningless without the blessing and purpose of Jesus.